Masterclass....

I think there should be class on how to live life? 

We spend most of our lives blasting and blundering through around absolutely clueless about our own aspirations, direction or purpose. We waste most of it on borrowed beliefs and ideas. We are so easily swayed by external manipulation, peer pressure and diktats of society. And before we know it, most of our life is done and dusted. 

Then the epiphany strikes, that what we have been doing and how we have been living, is not how we actually we wanted it to be. But where do we go from there henceforth, is different for all.

Some lament the loss of what they wanted but never tried for, and then waste the rest of the life drowning in the river of self blame and pessimism.

Some blitz through the infamous mid-life crises reinventing themselves or seek frivolous or oftentimes mundane endeavours.

Then there are some who get themselves entrenched in radicalizing ideologies, spiritualism bordering on fanaticism, and sometimes even cults and groups with questionable ethos, all in a bid to belong.

Then there are many more who feel that rather than self reflection and self improvement hereon, let's make it our life's motive to school and berate others on how they should be living their lives. Because of course who can be a better teacher on life than the one who is consistently failing at it, all the while stubbornly insisting this is how they and everyone else should be.

How many of us are actually courageous enough to face what we have lost and lived and take lessons from it? How many actually tighten their reins to resolve and thenceforth live their lives true to themselves and their innate purpose?

How many of us have the courage to unfollow the enmasse and carve their own niche?

Not many, I am afraid. And hence we spend most of our lives resenting others and their happiness and accomplishments. Most of us can't completely accept the way we spent most of our lives but find it equally hard to actually go about making any worthwhile changes in the right direction. And those few that do, we resent them, abhor them, ridicule and try to break them.

So then what do I do?

Am I brave enough to venture into the unknown that beckons me? Can I swim in the turbulent waters of life without drowning? Will I be able to actually look back at my life when it's at its end and smile in satisfaction? Can't say for sure but I am trying and striving and it's my life my art in progress....